Grief is not as heavy as guilt, but it takes more away from you...

Have you wondered what our exaggerated reactions might reveal about us? simply put, they reveal a truth about ourselves that we’re often afraid to admit... isn't..??

It’s scary being confronted with the reality of your suffering...

In that moment, you’re not only facing with all the pain you’ve suffer, but also with all of the work that now needs to be done. it’s a frightening realization, even more so when a person realizes their pain has been self-induced all along, and that its cessation has always been entirely within their control...

Most people run away from the true source of their problems when they see it staring back at them in the mirror.... 
it’s shocking to realize it’s been you all along... 
it’s a moment filled with shame that many refuse to accept, resorting instead to finger-pointing, frustration and blame...

I see this happen every day, disguised within people’s overblown comments  more importantly, i’ve also been witness to this within myself. i too, deluded myself for blaming all of my unhappiness on everyone around me, everyone but myself...

People often respond with anger and bitter criticism when their pain has finally been exposed...it repulses them to know the truth, even more so when they’ve.... they’ve realized it’s been their own doing all along..... their anger betrays them however, tricking them into thinking that no one knows best but them, but if that were true, their pain would have healed long ago. instead, it persists because they choose to resist...!!!!

When the truth behind our struggles is rolled out in front of us, our wounds become open, sensitive and raw.

In this moment, we become our most vulnerable, possibly even reverting to a childlike response filled with outbursts of rage, anger and contempt. we grieve for our loss of innocence...we didn’t realize our gross negligence, and it not only shocks us, it embarrasses us. we grieve for the part we've played in creating our pain and it’s damn hard to accept too...!!

This grief, the one where we realize we’ve been our own worst enemy, is just like any other...

Self-rejection

“Over the years, I have come to realize that the greatest trap in our life is not success, popularity, or power, but self-rejection. Success, popularity, and power can indeed present a great temptation, but their seductive quality often comes from the way they are part of the much larger temptation to self-rejection. 
When we have come to believe in the voices that call us worthless and unlovable, then success, popularity, and power are easily perceived as attractive solutions. 
The real trap, however, is self-rejection. As soon as someone accuses me or criticizes me, as soon as I am rejected, left alone, or abandoned, I find myself thinking, "Well, that proves once again that I am a nobody." ... [My dark side says,] I am no good... I deserve to be pushed aside, forgotten, rejected, and abandoned. 
Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that calls us the "Beloved." Being the Beloved constitutes the core truth of our existence.”

Can’t You See Me Through the Rain..!!

Have you ever felt like there was no where to run?
No one there, when all you need is a shoulder to cry on?
Where can you go when you get caught up in the drift of everything that is flowing through your head?
When all the pain comes rushing in and all you do is cry out to be saved, but there is no one there to feel your pain.
You feel so faraway from the world and you are lost in thought.
Just remember that you will find your way home.
You are going to make it alone.
All you need to do is say, that you can make it all the way, through thick and thin, you can make it in.
You are strong enough to mend, even if you feel afraid hold on tighter to your faith, and live one more day to make it through the rain.
Do not give in to all the things that pull you down.
You will make it safe and sound.
Keep pushing on and you will see that everything you need will come, if you just keep going a little further.
When people come to push you down don’t be afraid because you can make it all the way.
Don’t hesitate, just walk through the gate and you will see that you have made it all the way through the rain.

Know who you are..

Do the things you used to talk about doing but never did. 
Know when to let go and when to
hold on tight. 
Stop rushing. 
Don't be intimidated to say it like it is. 
Stop apologizing all the time. 
Learn to say no, so your yes has
some oomph. 
Spend time with the friends who lift you up, and cut loose the ones who bring you down. 
Stop giving your power away. 
Be more concerned with being interested then being interesting.
Be old enough to appreciate your freedom, and young enough to enjoy it. Finally know who you are..

Truth can set you free...

The truth can set you free, but when it comes, it's more like a wrecking-ball than a holy beam of illumination... 
Truth can be terrifying. If you're brave enough to follow truth it will shatter you and your illusions at the same time. If you are not taking proper care of yourself, you need to be broken, because you are probably set in your ways like concrete...!! 
Don't live a lie any more. Come clean. Let it out. The truth can do years of work in seconds. Once you let the truth loose it is like setting a fire that you can't stop...!! 
Let the fires of truth burn away your false life and your excuses, fears, blaming, doubts and illusions of insignificance. Accept that through truth, tomorrow will most certainly be different..!! 
Accept that you can and will do what you must do to take good care of yourself....!! 
Accept that there are people who will like you for who you really are.....!! 
Accept that you are not finished, and a new and better life is just beginning.....!! 
All of this is possible through accepting the truth that you are worthy of good things, and you are a deserving and beautiful person...!!