Inner Voice....

Haven't you been listening to your inner-voice? 
Be honest, your gut has been screaming but you have been ignoring it. 

How much more of your life are you going to throw-away for a lie? 
Accept it. 

Some people never change. Some people have abusive, negative, controlling tendencies in their blood....they are wired for havoc, bickering and deception. 

They know of no other way to interface with others except through their created chaos. Chaos is their home-court advantage where they play their mind-games so they can have power over you.. it's a rigged game you can never win. They will wear you ragged and bring you to your knees emotionally and physically. In time they will destroy every wonderful thing you have in your life. 

You are in danger... your health, your peace of mind, your happiness and maybe even your life. There is more than one way to lose your life... quickly through violence, or fettered-away and wasted around dreadful, toxic people. You must take control of your life and make good decisions for yourself. The insanity must end, for your sake and for theirs.

Pain is as expansive as life itself.

In the face of every type of pain, we tend to think that life will never be the same, but guess what, it was never going to be the same anyway. The only thing more relentless than pain is change. It certainly can seem like the relentless pain of life is unbearable, but you are never more alive than when you are enraptured by pain. Pain is a horribly wonderful gift. We are never taught more deeply and more truthfully than by pain. We are all aching. Young and old  we all ache so much. Our hearts and bodies feel every shock. Pain is as expansive as life itself. Pain grows with us and in us as a cultivation of life's unfolding. Your pain is reminding you that the gift of life is tender and precious. Suffering cuts to the quick of aliveness. Pain realigns us with the present moment and brings us into a mindful awareness of the labored expansion of life's gift called  now. Whether it be physical or emotional, pain is usually a messenger trying to help us. Pain is a breach in the walls of decline and stagnation. Pain is the ultimate proof of life. We are all aching for something, even if only for some relief and a little peace. But remember when you are aching to feel alive, that you are aching only because you are alive! Lifetimes are lost in unnoticed moments, but pain forces us to notice. Because of pain you feel more and so you live more. Every beautiful thing in the world is rooted in some kind of pain. Pain is the clarion of aliveness trumpeting that you are living in the marvelous tender cause of life! Your burdens and pains will only be lightened by living ever so fully. If you want relief from pain just strive to touch more of every part of life. Live so fully and so brilliantly that your pain diminishes in your aliveness. Day by day, as you live more, you will become greater than your pain. May you receive the wisdom of your wounds and may you live your life even larger than your pain.

Journey to know who we truly are...

It is often the case, that if we endeavor on the journey to know who we truly are, we must be willing to stand completely unarmored, on the precipice of our life, and begin the journey through the gateways of our deepest wounds. 

We are required to dive deep and experience these places with unrelenting curiosity and interest-in a way we never have before. We allow ourselves to stand naked, without neutering any of the feelings that arise, and allow ourselves to experience the full burden and weightiness of these wounds in our lives....as we travel deeper and deeper, we come to know that remarkably, and perhaps counter to what our mind has always told us, that we will in fact survive allowing ourselves to experience these painful feelings...it is precisely in this "seeing", that awareness has the opportunity to slip in, creating space, and we come to know all the ways that we have been imprisoned by the mistaken belief that we are in fact these wounds. This is a remarkable day when seeing what we are not allows us to know who we truly are. So will you turn away? Perhaps this time you don't let your mind decide and just dive right in........You are in fact, waiting for You....!!!!! 

There is a difference between saying goodbye and letting go....

There is a difference between saying goodbye and letting go. 
Goodbye is not permanent. 
You can meet years later as old friends and share what happened in your life. You can smile and laugh about all the nonsense that you both went through.

However, letting go is being okay with never seeing this person ever again…being okay with never knowing how their life turned out… being okay with fifty or more years of silence… being okay with running into that person at a grocery store and having them not acknowledge your presence. 

This is the part of life that doesn’t sit well with me and never will. It tears my heart in pieces, robs me of gratitude, drains me of anything positive and eats at the faith that holds on. It goes against kindness....

It's about and for you..!!!!

When you are generous, sometimes people will take advantage... 
You may be respectful and yet people will be unkind... 
You may be a good person, and people will nonetheless treat you terribly.... 

We don't always get what we give, but that's fine, because you aren't giving it for them anyway, at least not exclusively.... 

It's really all a statement by, about and for you. How you treat others is really about who you choose to be in this life... 

The repayment for your good acts are the good acts themselves. When you act honorably, even if others don't, your honorable actions are your irretractable reward to yourself.... 

Who you chose to be  decision by decision and act by act is the great reward you receive by doing good. What is well done is well received. The mark you leave in another's heart is always left in yours.. for better or worse...!!!

Polarity of life...

Life is always a polarity... 
If there were no darkness there would be no light...
If there were no trouble there could never be any peace... 
If the sun always shone you would not appreciate it... 
You have to learn sometimes through conditions that seem a nuisance... 
One day you will look back and say, "We learned our best lessons not when the sun was shining, but when the storm was at its greatest, when the thunder roared, the lightning flashed, the clouds obscured the sun and all seemed dark and hopeless". It is only when the soul is in adversity that some of its greatest possibilities can be realized...

Grief is not as heavy as guilt, but it takes more away from you...

Have you wondered what our exaggerated reactions might reveal about us? simply put, they reveal a truth about ourselves that we’re often afraid to admit... isn't..??

It’s scary being confronted with the reality of your suffering...

In that moment, you’re not only facing with all the pain you’ve suffer, but also with all of the work that now needs to be done. it’s a frightening realization, even more so when a person realizes their pain has been self-induced all along, and that its cessation has always been entirely within their control...

Most people run away from the true source of their problems when they see it staring back at them in the mirror.... 
it’s shocking to realize it’s been you all along... 
it’s a moment filled with shame that many refuse to accept, resorting instead to finger-pointing, frustration and blame...

I see this happen every day, disguised within people’s overblown comments  more importantly, i’ve also been witness to this within myself. i too, deluded myself for blaming all of my unhappiness on everyone around me, everyone but myself...

People often respond with anger and bitter criticism when their pain has finally been exposed...it repulses them to know the truth, even more so when they’ve.... they’ve realized it’s been their own doing all along..... their anger betrays them however, tricking them into thinking that no one knows best but them, but if that were true, their pain would have healed long ago. instead, it persists because they choose to resist...!!!!

When the truth behind our struggles is rolled out in front of us, our wounds become open, sensitive and raw.

In this moment, we become our most vulnerable, possibly even reverting to a childlike response filled with outbursts of rage, anger and contempt. we grieve for our loss of innocence...we didn’t realize our gross negligence, and it not only shocks us, it embarrasses us. we grieve for the part we've played in creating our pain and it’s damn hard to accept too...!!

This grief, the one where we realize we’ve been our own worst enemy, is just like any other...

Self-rejection

“Over the years, I have come to realize that the greatest trap in our life is not success, popularity, or power, but self-rejection. Success, popularity, and power can indeed present a great temptation, but their seductive quality often comes from the way they are part of the much larger temptation to self-rejection. 
When we have come to believe in the voices that call us worthless and unlovable, then success, popularity, and power are easily perceived as attractive solutions. 
The real trap, however, is self-rejection. As soon as someone accuses me or criticizes me, as soon as I am rejected, left alone, or abandoned, I find myself thinking, "Well, that proves once again that I am a nobody." ... [My dark side says,] I am no good... I deserve to be pushed aside, forgotten, rejected, and abandoned. 
Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that calls us the "Beloved." Being the Beloved constitutes the core truth of our existence.”

Can’t You See Me Through the Rain..!!

Have you ever felt like there was no where to run?
No one there, when all you need is a shoulder to cry on?
Where can you go when you get caught up in the drift of everything that is flowing through your head?
When all the pain comes rushing in and all you do is cry out to be saved, but there is no one there to feel your pain.
You feel so faraway from the world and you are lost in thought.
Just remember that you will find your way home.
You are going to make it alone.
All you need to do is say, that you can make it all the way, through thick and thin, you can make it in.
You are strong enough to mend, even if you feel afraid hold on tighter to your faith, and live one more day to make it through the rain.
Do not give in to all the things that pull you down.
You will make it safe and sound.
Keep pushing on and you will see that everything you need will come, if you just keep going a little further.
When people come to push you down don’t be afraid because you can make it all the way.
Don’t hesitate, just walk through the gate and you will see that you have made it all the way through the rain.

Know who you are..

Do the things you used to talk about doing but never did. 
Know when to let go and when to
hold on tight. 
Stop rushing. 
Don't be intimidated to say it like it is. 
Stop apologizing all the time. 
Learn to say no, so your yes has
some oomph. 
Spend time with the friends who lift you up, and cut loose the ones who bring you down. 
Stop giving your power away. 
Be more concerned with being interested then being interesting.
Be old enough to appreciate your freedom, and young enough to enjoy it. Finally know who you are..

Truth can set you free...

The truth can set you free, but when it comes, it's more like a wrecking-ball than a holy beam of illumination... 
Truth can be terrifying. If you're brave enough to follow truth it will shatter you and your illusions at the same time. If you are not taking proper care of yourself, you need to be broken, because you are probably set in your ways like concrete...!! 
Don't live a lie any more. Come clean. Let it out. The truth can do years of work in seconds. Once you let the truth loose it is like setting a fire that you can't stop...!! 
Let the fires of truth burn away your false life and your excuses, fears, blaming, doubts and illusions of insignificance. Accept that through truth, tomorrow will most certainly be different..!! 
Accept that you can and will do what you must do to take good care of yourself....!! 
Accept that there are people who will like you for who you really are.....!! 
Accept that you are not finished, and a new and better life is just beginning.....!! 
All of this is possible through accepting the truth that you are worthy of good things, and you are a deserving and beautiful person...!!

Only once in your life....!!!!!!!!!!

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you have never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.....
You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.... 
When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.... 
There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever..... 
Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life...!!!!

Valentine special...!!!

“A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life. ”

― Richard Bach

I have to be...!!!

The person in life that you will always be with the
most, is yourself. Because even when you are with
others, you are still with yourself, too! When you
wake up in the morning, you are with yourself,
laying in bed at night you are with yourself,
walking down the street in the sunlight you are with yourself. What kind of person do you want to walk down the street with? What kind of person do you want to wake up in the morning with? What kind of person do you want to see at the end of the day before you fall asleep? Because that person is yourself, and it's your responsibility to be that person you want to be with. I know I want to spend my life with a person who knows how to let things go, who's not full of hate, who's able to smile and be carefree. So that's who I have to be.

Being filled with love...

Being love-filled and beautiful is almost unconquerable. 
Love absorbs the hard blows of rigid fists.
love surrounds, softens and tires violence and force. If you are confronted, bullied or intimidated while expressing your voice of reason, remember this protective strategy be beautiful. 
Being love-filled and beautiful is one of the most powerful defenses that one can employ. 
Imagine that you are a beautiful and unique flower growing in life's garden. 
Most people will not intentionally step on a beautiful flower. 
If you are walking through the garden and you see the beautiful flowers, you will walk around them to avoid destroying their delicate beauty. 
Even most "mean people" and "bad people," otherwise known as people in pain and crisis, try to avoid the destruction of beauty by their own hand. 
They recognize beauty and secretly wish more of their own beauty was dominant. 
And even when the rare soul who enjoys trampling and crushing the beautiful flowers comes along, they quickly discover that there are many gardeners who tend life's garden, and these gardeners do not like people stepping on the beautiful flowers. 
A beautiful person is protected like a beautiful flower in a garden, which many gardeners tend. 
You do not have to do anything to defend yourself in life; just be beautiful and life will defend you.

Don't let them go..!!!

If you find some one who make you smile..

Who checkup on you often to see, that you are ok...!!

Who watches out for you..and want very best for you...

Don't let them go..!!!!!

Keep them close and don't take them for granted...

People are like that hard to find..!!! 

Let the Past be Past...!!!!!!

You have to get clear in your present life  clear of the junk from your past. When you are laying in bed trying to relax, how many voices and people are in there with you? When you are thinking about making a move forward in your life that you should have made years ago, what scary memories or fears start running you down? You may not need an exorcist, but those negative voices need to get going, and now. Clear out all of those doubts and fears. Let the past be the past. It's time. You need some breathing room to think. Create some clear space and then you will know exactly what to do..

It's Your Life...!!!!!

There is nothing you will ever do that is more important than being honest about who you really are. As crazy as it may seem, most of us are not who we think we are; we are someone else's ideas. Two words: cultural conditioning. Our identities are tremendously warped and distorted by yesterday's trauma and tomorrow's expectations. The struggle to excavate your true, authentic self from beneath the mountain of conditioning and ridiculous expectation is the epic struggle of your lifetime. Most people are buried alive in a cultural and familial avalanche from the moment they are born, and are never seen or heard from again. Your number one mission in life is to be who you were intended to be. Nothing is more miserable than living a muted existence of inauthenticity. All pain in life comes from suppressing your true identity. You must begin to understand that this is your life; no one else's! This is your precious, wonderful, unique and brief moment in life! Please, I beg you, to at least be honest with yourself and be who you are. If you can't be who you really are then what is life but an unbearable lie? Refuse to be coerced. Resist the suppressive pressure to contract, and instead expand in defiance. Resist and declare that you are alive; you are you, and you are unmasterable and beautifully broken in a fixed world.

Keep Moving Forward...!!!!

There are times in our lives when we finally get out of the funk and fog of our past just far enough, that a clearing starts to take place in our minds. Maybe we begin to believe we can and should do something we have wanted to do for a very long time, where the impossible starts to look possible. It could be going back to school or turning a hobby into a business. Perhaps we want to leave a relationship that has lingered on too long and is hurting everyone. It could be a risky career change or leaving your town to live a new adventure somewhere else that is calling to you. It could be overcoming an addiction, asking forgiveness or rekindling a broken relationship. When the clearing starts to happen, and we begin to see the path of possibility in ourselves widening, we often need help to make the journey. Maybe we need a little extra money or a place to stay where we are safe. Perhaps we need some tools, favors or just some moral support and encouragement. In moments like this, we may turn to our friends and family, only to discover that the community of people who have known us the longest can't see the same clearing or vision. The clearing is often only happening for us, and those who love us most cannot see or believe in our nascent visions, because they can only see yesterday. But if you have a deep desire to move forward, a way is being prepared for you.

Let it go..!!

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight...
Not a footprint to be seen...
A kingdom of isolation..
And it looks like I'm queen..

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside..
Couldn't keep in, heaven knows i tried...

Don't let them in
Don't let them see..
Be the good girl you always have to be..
concel, don't feel
Don't let them know
Well, now they know
Let it go..
Let it go
Cant hold it back anymore...
Let it go
Let it go
Turn away and slam the door..

I don't care..
What they are going to say !!
Let the storm rage on 
The cold never bothered me anyway...

Its funny how some distance
Make everything seem small...
And the fear that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all...
Its time to see what i can do
To test the limits and break through..
No right, no wrong, no rules for me..
I am free
Let it go..
Let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go
Let it go
You never see me cry..

Here i stand and here i'll stay
Let the storm rage on
My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I m never going back. the past is in the past
Let it go
Let it go
And i'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go
Let it go
The perfect girl is gone..
Here i stand in the light of day
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway..!!!

Yes..!! It happens..

Despite what you may believe, you can disappoint people and still be good enough... 
You can make mistakes and still be capable and talented.... 
You can let people down and still be worthwhile and deserving of love..... 
Everyone has disappointed someone they care about.... 
Everyone messes up, lets people down, and makes mistakes.... 
Not because we're inadequate or fundamentally inept, but because we're imperfect and fundamentally human.... 
Expecting anything different is setting yourself up for failure....
That is Life....!!!!!!! 

Attitude matters..!!!!

Positive attitudes are concerned with possibilities, whereas negative attitudes are concerned with what seems to be unlikely....

Where negative attitudes repel opportunities, positive attitudes open possibilities.... 
Bias can work for or against you.... 
Positive attitudes qualify you for positive experiences. ...
Hopefully and devoutly focus on your greater possibilities..... 
Hopeful thoughts needn't be limitless in scope..... 
Any good is good enough..... 
Positive thinking needn't be thought of as selfish or exclusively serving the self.... 
When you live positively it is impossible to not also be living for something greater than yourself, because when you transform yourself, your change impacts the lives of many other people for the rest of your life......!!!!!!!!

Conflict is natural..co ordination is man made..!!!

Learn to love being told you are wrong or being insulted. 
Every insult is an opportunity... 
Being insulted offers you an opportunity to practice decency and having a non-response internally...  
When we are easily upset it is because we are internally unstable and unrefined spiritually... 
Any defensiveness is a sign of failure... 
You can't move forward if you are defensive... 
If you do not like a certain behavior in others, look within yourself to find the roots of what discomforts you... 
The conflicts we have with the outside world are often conflicts we have within ourselves... 
Criticism is no threat to your self-esteem or identity, but rather informs you... 
You can't see clearly through defensiveness... 
You can get to a place where you see clearly..that place is zero defensiveness....
An intelligent person is never afraid or ashamed to find errors in his understanding of things... 
The best practice is to be around people who absolutely disagree... 
Grace in conflict is a study in love....